What did I do for my . . .
Here's a good example. For over a year I tried to be seen by an endocrinologist. [brief history: developed clots in legs and lungs, discovered my thyroid was hyper which might be causing my a-fib, had thyroid destroyed, thyroid functioning normally, still going into a-fib; now thyroid is hypo (slow, people, slow) and remember when thyroid was killed by radiation - so if it was destroyed how could it still be functioning?] I figured an endocrinologist could focus more on the problems I was having with my thyroid, etc. I went through a bunch of tests. She gave her recommendation... how much thyroid to take, oh I have no vitamin D in my system, so I need to take that, my calcium levels are low, and I need to take vitamins. She prescribed Vitamin D, Synthroid, Calcium Citrate, and a chewable multiple vitamin. I took everything for maybe 2 weeks and then I forgot to take them. Or I would remember at night but you can't take your thyroid meds at night. So I purchased one of those elaborate pill boxes. That worked for a week; and then I shoved it off the counter into a drawer and simply forgot about it.
I have to ask myself why did I stopped taking my meds? Now I'm walking around like a zombie because I'm tired and feel run down. I had my annual wellness assessment with my family doctor and guess what she said? My thyroid is at a very low level and she wants me to increase my dose (but how could I tell her I wasn't taking the original dose so would the original dose be enough if I was taking it?), my vitamin D level is almost at 0; so I need to take vitamin D; she asked if I was taking my calcium because it didn't seem to be working and my iron levels are low. In other words, everything was down lower than it was in September when I went to the endocrinologist. You know the one that I battled so hard to obtain.
And I go back to the endocrinologist the last week in May.. so since it takes about 6 weeks for the synthroid to get in your system I just started taking it on Friday. I don't want to disappoint my doctor that I didn't follow her advice, the advice that I wanted to bad.
And this happens with planning meals for my family, or packing my lunch daily (normally I don't), going to bed on a more routine basis; meditating, exercising and now even journaling (which I've always enjoyed). I have several smash books that I love to work in but I have those packed away. I really haven't done anything creative for fun for a very long time.
I seem to have time to play Farmville, or Words with Friends, or go blog hopping. But I never seem to find this time for me.
I came across the above saying and it sort of slapped me in the face. It slapped my face so hard I printed off several copies. I'm pasting one in my journal, hanging one at work and one on my frig. I'm hoping this reminder will help me get back on track.